Andy Irons. Photo: Tupat
This is a song I wrote after thinking a lot about the death of Andy Irons. I was trying to think what he must have felt: a man who has it all, but doesn’t have the ability to enjoy it. Here it is:
Suddenly like nothing I feel so miserable
Everybody looks so mean. I don’t know how I feel, I can’t figure out what they want from me.
And all around people keep on pushing me to deal with a reality that I just can’t see.
And all around people keeps on pushing me to deal with a reality now it is hard to breathe.
Confused, I am leaving the life that I had.
Sounds of my loved ones all around.
Will they forgive me?
Will they know how hard I tried?
Will they understand how the monsters took hold of me?
When I rode my last ride?
It is hard to explain inner violence.
It is hard to explain how violent a man can be toward himself.
When everyone’s cheering or when everyone’s not.
Your brain does something that sets you apart from your loved ones and from your fellow man.
I am so sorry but I was unable to find the right way to explain.
